Goodbye 2008

2008-09-29T23:06:00.001+08:00

SITE IS CLOSED FOR RENOVATION.

IT WILL RESUME IN 20 NOV 2008.

STAY TUNED... XOXO

16th August 2008

2008-08-20T00:13:00.000+08:00

Lunar 7th month 9 course lunch @ Sentosa Construction site. A group of 'Happy Us' taking photo by Siloso Beach. Perhaps, that's the best thing about working at site. When you get too stress up, slip your way through the noisy environment to the haven with plenty of sunshine. That should refresh your mind for a while.

One thing I learn from that day lesson: Company paid for the drink. Don't they look high and... maybe you should see them live. That will explain ALOT MORE. Trust me.

Site has portable toilet which is expectedly unclean. We held our bladders until we have reached Underwater World for the toilet. We were there for awhile and took the chance to view FOC item, like the sea turtle pictured above.

2008-08-19T23:04:00.000+08:00

Listen to good stuff only? NO WAY. The dory was indeed fishy (spoiled).

I can't deny my love for IKEA's meatballs. Simply irresistable.

This is the 3rd time in 2 month that we had a feast in IKEA Queensway.

We keep coming back for more, more and MORE.

2008-08-18T22:06:00.007+08:00

Last night, I had dinner buffet @ Timbre with my loveliest classmates. Althought it was drizzling but it didn't dampen the atmosphere there. During the meal, it feels like we have gone back to school days, eat and work on project concurrently. I miss you people already. Well, Timbre has nice ambience, the usual day is opened for drinking. Buffet is served only on Sunday evening. Affordable price, limited varieties yet acceptable standard to our taste bud.

There's a high chance I'm going back there again! It's worth to try out. =)

Happy National Day (Preview)

2008-08-05T22:39:00.001+08:00

My Birthday 2008

2008-08-04T20:07:00.006+08:00

N.B. Not to forget, my beloved classmates who celebrated with me @ Vivocity as well.

2008-08-04T00:22:00.002+08:00

http://www.women10k.com/

I done something crazy on Sunday. I signed up for Great Eastern Women 10K.

Maybe, it's time to kickstart some basic training and get fit again. The race is on 26th Oct 2008. I have more than 2 month to train. Wish me all the best, to a healthier ME!!!

Belated Bday Celebration

2008-08-02T19:47:00.000+08:00

29th May 2008, SP Graduation Ceremony

2008-08-02T18:50:00.003+08:00

2008-07-31T00:10:00.001+08:00

Given by XXX Pte Ltd (Stone supplier), imported from Italy.

I know it's a good life I'm having @ work, with many good food offered to us everytime.

Enjoy the delicious photos.

2008-07-31T00:04:00.000+08:00

THIS IS BREAKFAST.

A little shocking, I know that. But my colleauges insisted that's LUNCH.

One of the male concluded he will be broke just by feeding me. WTH* I'm not rubbish bin.

2008-07-27T23:23:00.000+08:00

2008年-月-日

以前的那个他，该说是七个月前的莫个男人伤透了我的心。我情愿从没拥有，也不要拥有过了才失去它。我的心像是被人扔进大海，浮浮沉沉的，迷失了方向感。

所以，我对这份工作充满热诚，希望。它是我精神上的寄托，期望，我不想再犯错了。我能体恤你那时的心情。当男人的热情与占有欲太强时，你我都无法忍受想要逃之夭夭。

原来，我这三年不是真正为自己而活，只是得过且过。别人可能认为，我这些年来都是白活的。我不否认，也不完全认同。我要快乐！可是幸福必须自己去争取。我不漂亮，聪明，我其实是个小女人。

被爱的感觉很好，我将来也能拥有它，属于自己的幸福。

2008-07-24T22:45:00.000+08:00

2008年-月-日

有一天，我觉得自己对他已超出该有的感情。经过上一次失败的恋情，感情对我而言不再是甜蜜，而是烦恼的根源。我好害怕别人对我太好。错觉也好，多心也罢，我不敢去想但逃避不能解决问题。或许，我早已有了决定。

明示，暗示，却不知道他真正的表示。还是我没注意他的提示呢？算是明确啦。算了吧。

（30分钟后）

咳哟！

我尽量不去想那一次的失败，却又往伤口里钻的深深地。真是的。*摇头。我一定要活得开心，加油，加油！过去的事不重要，应当珍惜眼前事物才是。明天起，我的生命会更完美快乐。

是时候寻找自己要的未来与目标。。。

2008-07-22T20:44:00.004+08:00

Something you probably don't know about me. Personally, the accuracy of this test is pretty high. For those who has facebook account, try this quiz, yeah.

2008-07-17T21:51:00.002+08:00

If I have a choice to the ending, I would have done it differently.

Finally, things had changed for the better for the clique. We met up yesterday for dinner, despite the long wait alone. I believe it's all worth the time for it.

We might not exchanged many words during our short meet up. The feelings pretty much the same, we still have each other no matter what happens. Be it near or far, we're reminded often of one another. I LOVE YOU GIRLS!

In fact, I fell in love with Clarke Quay somehow. No, it's not all about dancing and drinking at the popular nightlife scene. Perhaps, you will find out its beauty in regardless day or night. Take a slow stroll with your loved ones, friends or family over there. Should you feel upset, don't jump right into the river. Pour your heart out to them by the riverside.

No outsider will take particular attention to you. That's the bonus. They probably think you are drunk and ignore you. =)

I guess it will be a short entry for today. Got to knock off now. *peace

p.s. If it's meant to be, there's no running away from it.

Network down

2008-06-29T18:25:00.002+08:00

Sorry people. My network was down lately, that should explain my absence online for weeks. I wrote a list few day back. Then, I realized they are still my beloved friends or even buddies. Perhaps, it's just me not knowing how to maintain the connection. Deep down, I miss every single of them very much.

Indeed, I have shifted my focus fully in my career. Something I don't want to lose or regret for not doing my best. To my friends, don't be offended or upset if I seem distant from you. Please remember, I always think about you.

My List (Not in order, definitely)

a) Melissa
b) H2O
c) DPFM 01
d) NCC, you know who you are.

p.s. cherie/weiling: I'm not upset about us anymore. =) drop me a msg anytime. For my former classmates, sorry I havent been spending time with you.

Give me some time, hopefully by end of this year. I will balance out Jamie's time only with my social circle. In fact, I have some concern that I don't know where to start or end it. Don't worry too much about me. I will be strong and work hard.

That applies to everyone I care for too. Let's do it together, okay!? =)

It's a beautiful Sunday, isn't it? Please be assured that I will lend a listening ear if you ever need me.

Random

2008-06-14T12:51:00.003+08:00

Once again, it's Saturday.

Yes, a day to celebrate the end of working week. Unfortunately, I'm on shift today, right now. By right, I should have knocked off at 12:30pm. Thanks to my darlings at Tender dept, I have to stay until 2pm.

They're the one who tender for the job, I'm the one who do the shit later on. ALRIGHT. They do SHIT PART 1, I do SHIT PART 2. 可怜吧！*cries.

After 2pm, Joc and I are bringing our Lord, Chris to cut his hair. He got this unbelievable uncle hair style that we seriously cannot *tahan. Did I mention I have my fringe cut flat and straight? Like 中国娃娃 or 日本少女, that's up to you to decide. =)

Last Wednesday, I went to SP NCC FO BBQ. I thought they must be surprised at my changes. It's not that bad, right? C'mon, I'm entertaining to be around. Eugene must be, "少来啦！"

Zhen Long, Jing Kai and Eugene commented I have strong Malaysian accent. I can't help it, people. I working in a place with 50% Malaysian workers. 极够力喔。*wink. I already miss that night at Kallang Sea Training Centre.

I miss you* whoever you are, whatever it is and...

CHRIS IS MAKING ME 吐血！臭男人！(I must complain to Joc now.)

Making a comeback

2008-06-13T12:50:00.003+08:00

[ FIR - Ni Hen Ai Ta ]

I'm listening to this song right now over the radio. 10 minutes to the end of my lunch break. I know it has been a month long wait for everyone. Thus, I decided to take this chance and thanks my loyal readers. (I LOVE YOU!!!)

Well, I'm not exactly a writer. My life is not exceptional beautiful. At least, I know life starts to bloom well ever since I've graduated. 2 weeks ago, I attended my Graduation Ceremony at Singapore Polytechnic. A moment to remember, a lifetime momeries. Over there, we've a group of friends, a team of lecturers and many more. I really miss those days with the people I have associated.

I'm especially thankful to what has happened that brought me this far. To some, I may have exceeded their expectation. I'm glad I did and I will continue to try my best.

What's left behind is history, lesson to learn. What lies in front of me, is present to learn as well. I can control my future, or so I believe. =)

To my dearest friends, may the days ahead of us be bright like a Sun.

19th March 2008

2008-05-05T23:00:00.005+08:00

I was browsing my camera album when I came across a few photo of roses. That's when I realized I didn't blog them in my entry. I'm not sure if you remember I used to work at CK Tang Lancome counter before starting a full time job at Sysma.

Well, Sandra was still working there but her role was different now. She works as a flower girl, period. For each flower a customer receives, it comes with an exchange voucher for this whitening foam. It's mild and gentle to the skin, I have tried it. I love it actually.

To be really nice to my crazy we-should-dump-the-flyer buddy, I bought her CHOCOLATE donuts from donut factory. We'd craving that very day. In return, I took home 2 stalk of gorgeous white rose. I attracted envy stares along Orchard Road, some even approached me where to get that. Oh, attention seeker.

You probably thinking roses don't SUCK UP Breezer. Veggie = Alcohol?

In fact, I tried to water it and preserve its beauty (at least for that moment).

Beautiful in an artistic way. I do know I'm abit strange. SHUT UP!

18th March 2008

2008-05-05T00:26:00.006+08:00

"The Bible"

Inspiring quote of the day, from Clement.

"Another day to learn new things and reinforce your old skills. Don’t give up.”

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To Wai Yiu, thanks for the already known fun fact No.1 of Chinatown that day.

“Chinatown’s Chinese name is derived from the buffalo carts in the past.”

17th March 2008

2008-05-05T00:24:00.000+08:00

It was a long long time ago, I was thinking of place to backpack in Singapore and Shamsul suggested the following:

Pulau Ubin
Sentosa
Pulau Tekong (Higly Recommended)
Yio Chu Kang
Ang Mo Kio
Orchard Road
Geylang Red Light District (2nd on the list)
Beach Road (3rd on the list)
Dover

“Tekong is a good hideout. Ubin is not bad either, safer than Tekong. If you want mainland, Bukit Timah is top of the list. You can always seek refuge at Gurkha Camp. Their apartments not bad, no lift only.”

How sympathetic is that from him. It doesn’t end here.

“Well, Ubin, you can do animal hunting, visit the swamps, go fishing, visit the villages. If you want a challenging package, go Tekong. You can play CS & practice your shooting, and camouflage capabilities. No insurance though.”

14th March 2008

2008-05-04T23:57:00.003+08:00

I heard that it’s 白色情人节 today.

At the same time, we celebrated Dad’s belated birthday at Tao’s Restaurant. I haven’t managed to get hold of the photograph we took. (I will update on this)

I find today’s date familiar, seriously I think is someone’s birthday. Who is that someone… give me some time to figure it out. I know it’s not any of my business and why should I even bother in the first place.

NG HAN ZHONG!

It’s his 20th birthday, perhaps Vel remember it. That’s for you to find out why. (sounds scandalous) They’re clean, I mean no dark secret.

On second thought, I can’t be sure of that myself. *smile. I hope she doesn’t run after me with a parang upon reading this. I know she won’t, she loves scandal.

Oops!

13th March 2008

2008-05-04T23:52:00.003+08:00

“… I’m damn full okay. Stop pushing food to me.”

My colleagues are forcing me to eat more, more and more! Boss gave us a treat at York Hotel (Penang Buffet). It was a surprised treat (my concern is that whose car I’m taking).

(OH FCUK!)

A wild guess could lead you to the painful truth of my lunch break.

“Jamie, you be taking Mr XXX’s car. Haha. You’re newbie, sit at the front.” (Boss’s balls. Okay, that’s crude.)

Pardon me, alright. I seldom write like this. It’s a bad thing to be a newcomer. Queenie and Adelin just joined the office few days back, why can’t they take the Boss’s car? I need no vomiting before indulging in buffet. (argh!)

Jocelyn was the sly one. *shakehead.

Up to date, I’m still distant from my friendly colleagues, except for Sharon and Eloisa. However, they are quitting the company after working at least a decade here. Bad news.

After slogging hard at office, I went to meet my all time favourite people: Pei Qin, Louis, Marie, Yong Lun, Lilian, Way Quan, Si Jie and Min Yee.

Happy 21st Birthday Louis!

Pei Qin arranged us to meet at Ju Ju Steamboat for the joyous celebration. If only, I didn’t have the buffet in the afternoon. The food simply irresistible and Way Quan gave me some of his share. Oh, I must mention this, okay.

They served this special flower tea (free flow). It’s totally oh-my-god! PERFECT!

Then again, how can I live my life without them?

I LOVE YOU, POLY MATES!

12th March 2008

2008-05-04T23:49:00.003+08:00

2 words: Strange and Awkward.

Kenny Roger reminds me of someone else. Good memories, of course. I shall not elaborate.

We’re having Kenny Roger at Marina Square, exactly where I spotted my deaf brother and my petite sister-in-law (she’s good complexion).

“She doesn’t smile…” commented the clique. I found out later that my brother was an hour late. (she’s angry lah!)

Dinner ended with a nice “chick” chat with Cherie, Vel and Sandra. I decided to overwrite Weiling, with Vel. More “angmoh” flavour. She picked that name herself, I’m interested to know the meaning behind it.

10th March 2008

2008-05-04T23:49:00.001+08:00

Erica met up with me for dinner at Bishan (Pizza Hut). She’s late, later and very late than me. I was starving, crawling on the floor of the crowded J8 and screaming for help. But I was ignored.

Jacinth spotted me alone. I think it’s a good sign. I don’t mean anything in particular.

Let’s do a quick check of my life. (I’m good at changing topic, right?)

I’m still single (sigh!) and happy at work. My friends are alive, so am I. I knew Daric online, he’s one sexy-talk man.

“… you look hot in tube.” I like that compliment. How flattering.

Up to this point, which sentence is a false claim? (Answer at the bottom)

Answer: I’m a drama queen. I won’t reveal answer easily. It’s not a scam.

8th March 2008

2008-05-04T23:46:00.001+08:00

I don’t like what she said to me, period.

I actually went to club last night, Ministry of Sound. Definitely, with my oh-so-happening clique. *wink.

7th March 2008

2008-05-04T23:44:00.001+08:00

This day has arrived, like finally.

I’m not quite into the situation, am I? I hardly remember the plot layout that I have been staring at for the past 4 days. Could that be a sign on me not suitable for this job? I have yet to find out, stay positive Jamie!

*va-va-vroom. I died once on the first day at work, I don’t want to die again on the road. My boss drives a Merc (be specific, I don’t know which series) and it has good engine. It sounds better than clock ticking. An impatient driver he is, at every turn he makes a swift “initial D” movement. Beads of sweat, dizzy spell and headache are kicking in. I held tightly to the safety belt whenever I remember.

In between the visit to different site, he actually drove off when I have one foot outside the car. The door wasn’t even closed. He’s a risk taker. It happened not once but twice. He did that on Li Lian too. She’s our attachment student from SP aka my junior. She’s actually a 1988 baby, like me! A typical Leo she is, chatty and lively, I like. (I’m straight, believe me)

For your information, the site is unbelievable. I’m looking forward to the completion of The Glass House. No, you’re not mistaken. It is what it’s named. Cool, isn’t it? However, workmanship is crucial to ensure stability of this house. We provide quality work, no worries.

We visited two completed project around the same area. I’m learning to appreciate the art of construction and design.

1st house: They used sea water to run water test for the swimming pool. It looks like a crocodile pond to me. Can you imagine yourself swimming in it? How creepy. Oh, I hope I can squeeze in a walk in wardrobe into my future HDB flat unit. Impossible.

2nd house: Aerospace rich guy bought 2 plots and share a common swimming pool. The exclusive feature is the water fall at the edge of the pool. Horizon lining and you can observe stunning sunset. Both plots have different interior design, very comfy.

I know you can’t feel exactly how I feel at that point. I promise to brush up my limited vocabulary. But some things are beyond the description of word. (crap!)

5th March 2008

2008-05-04T23:43:00.001+08:00

It’s norm that I won’t be on time, at least for this month itself. I hope I will survive the trial I’m going to face sooner or later.

I have started moving into the office, I brought my Bible, mug, slippers, jacket and more to come… I spent the entire morning sorting out my notes and dividing it into chapters. *Ta dah. My survival technique for measurement is all inside this thick ring file. Should I label the front with “The Bible”? (hmm…)

Jocelyn is adapting well over there. No, I’m not struggling especially I have The Bible now. My colleagues are SP Alumni, youngest Alumni is 14 years my senior. He’s a Singaporean.

For your information, the company hires mostly Malaysian. Jocelyn and I broke the “tradition” they had in the recent years (like 4 years already). We’ve 5 Singaporean out of the 20 staffs in the office.

I’m in Project department, everyone is a workaholic. How do they manage to work under the loud radio 93.3 FM? (I feel that my head is growing bigger, not the brain but the explosive.) It’s only a matter of time that I explode. *ba-bomb.

“… how’s tender department? I’m feeling sleepy after lunch. Yawn.”

I can’t remember what she replied, somewhere along the line that we’re in the same shit. I’m glad that I’m not alone here. We text each other in the morning, during office hour and after work for the past 2 day.

I mustn’t regret the choice: I have rejected working in CPG as Property Executive. (Damn it.)

Guess what, the boss is bringing 3 other colleagues and me to our construction site located at Sentosa. I’m seeing light at the end of the tunnel (of misery). It hasn’t been all that bad, has it?
Wait a second, what misery? I have no idea either. I’m keeping my fingers cross for the better day to come.

3rd March 2008

2008-05-04T23:42:00.001+08:00

“I’m late, again!”

Not to anyone’s surprise, I’m aware of that obvious piece of fact about me. I’m not a punctual person. If I have to be on time, I will… end up ahead of the scheduled 8:30am. “Let’s do a time check, 8:40am. 10 minutes late won’t kill my first impression, right?”

At least, that’s what I thought (to myself).

First SMS of the day, Jocelyn wrote:

“… I think you’re in Project department, they brought me to Tender department. I feel like we’re back in ITP… “

For some who have not heard of Jocelyn, she’s my attachment buddy-turned-buddy classmate-turned-colleague-turned-good friend. A long chain of relationship, I know. At one point, it sounds complicated.

To my horror, I wasn’t introduced to the company history, people but to get my ass glue to the seat and start work. I was dumped a stack of construction drawing with a layer of dust on it. *sneeze.

“What a way to die on my first day of work…” I wasn’t prepared for measurement, not that I know I have to. I asked on the day I signed my appointment letter. Thankfully, I didn’t waste my school fee for the past 3 years.

My utmost concern was my lunch break.

Where are we eating?
Who are we eating with?
What to eat and what to do?

Eloisa cracked it up really well. “I worked here 18 years leh, You only first day already have problem what to eat. Aiya, Everyday try one stall lah, left to right, right to left. Haha.”

Good idea. I will consider it. 姜还是老的辣！

Time past real slow, the sound of clock tick has put me to sleep. I have lost count of my yawn.

p.s. Cherie babe is going Hong Kong until 7th March.

p.p.s. My horrible brother is coming home from Hong Kong tomorrow.

2008-03-16T23:30:00.000+08:00

炎亚纶刘力扬, TiAmo

虽然是简单的形容
虽然是重复的动作
因为有你让一切都变成不平凡

[Chorus]
好想缝合你我手心
就这样牵住不放开
有你陪伴呼
吸着有你的空气就是幸福

Ti amo Te Quiero
每一天都要爱上你
想着你沉入梦境
一张眼一清醒
第一个想到又是你

Sa-rang hae And I Love You
我每天都要爱上你
少一天就会遗憾
陪着你的光阴
怎样都不算蹉跎

[Chorus]

陪着你的光阴
永远都觉得不够

2008-03-16T23:15:00.002+08:00

I know I have not been updating regularly. Please be patient, okay? =)

Until then, stay healthy and smile. You know I miss you people too.

2008-03-02T22:43:00.004+08:00

Kavana, Will You Wait For Me

I need to talk with you again
Why did you go away
All our time together still feels like yesterday
I never thought I'd see a single day without you
The things we take for granted
We can sometimes lose

And if I promise not to feel this pain
Will I see you again X 2

(Chorus)
Cause time will pass me by
Maybe I'll never learn to smile
But I know I'll make it through
If you wait for me

And all the tears I cry
No matter how I try
They'll never bring you home to me
Won't you wait for me in heaven

Do you remember how it was
When we never seemed to care
The days went by so quickly
Cause I thought you'd always be there

And it's hard to let you go
Though I know that I must try
I feel like I've been cheated
Cause we never said goodbye

And if I promise not to feel this pain
Will I see you again X 2

(Chorus)
Cause I miss you so, and I need to know
Will you wait for me?

(Chorus)
And time will pass me by
Maybe I'll never learn to smile
But I know I'll make it through
if you wait for me

The Leap Year

2008-02-29T22:24:00.000+08:00

this love has killed me but it's not over. thou we shall together in 4 years.

2008-02-27T10:11:00.002+08:00

I PASSED. FINALLY!

GPA? NAH, IT DOESN'T MATTER. REALLY. C'MON I GOT A JOB.

FYP IS A HELL GRADE OF ACE...

THE REST JUST AVERAGE...

most importantly, i graduated from singapore polytechnic officially.

thanks god for everything. =)

2008-02-26T21:52:00.002+08:00

DAUGHTRY, OVER YOU

Now that it's all said and done
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house

What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of me

(Chorus)
Well, I never saw it coming
I should've started running
A long, long time ago
And I never thought I'd doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
And now I'm picking up the pieces
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together

Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of others opened up

So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me

(Chorus X 3)

Well I got over you
I got over you
Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you.

bonjour

2008-02-24T23:30:00.001+08:00

Since 20th onwards, I am working at CK Tang lancome counter until my full time job at Sysma. Job scope? Redemption counter assistant. I'm paid to use skincare product. At the end of the assignment I get to bring the redemption gift home. Sounds good to you?

I tried the eye cream and my dark rings got lighter after 2 tries. It's amazing. I had 4 other fabulous temporary partners too. Sandra is my bitch aka buddy too (below). We worked the same shift, meal together and we talked nonsense. Hui Fen, she's one fearless petite girl. She dared the counter manager, to get the security guard to confront her for violating the rule.

Sarah is sweet looking but super ah lian. Definately, a nice friend to girls. Wan Ting is gentle and tall. No, you ain't fat. The full time staff are humourous lot. They took care of us and in return we do a nice job for them.

Apart from the usual condition of the job, we have to put on heavy make up to conceal/highlight whatever it is on our face. Standing at the Lancome counter, we are the representative of the company.

IMAGE. That's the word. My poor face suffered okay. Now it's better with the skincare product sample I have got from someone. I'm saved.

The Manhattan Fish Market

2008-02-22T23:15:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR ANG SUAN PING ERIC!

Happy birthday to YOU! You're borned in the zoo... (lalala)

My elder brother used to disturb me with this song on my birthday. I love my brother, he's always funny and take good care of me. Therefore, my boyfriend/hubby must be as good as my brother! I'm proud of you BRO!

Okay, the point for today entry is my buddy's birthday. We could get a HUGE discount but we got the 10% off staff discount. Better than nothing right? Here's the food we had. I apologize for the poor quality of photograph.

Garlic butter mussel. I like chilli mussel (tried it in Perth, Australia).

Seafood platter for two. Bigger portion, better quality to Fish n' Co.

Here's my buddy. He looks hopeless but he hell load of good results. DAMN IT!

Backpack (Chinatown) Part 2

2008-02-19T23:06:00.000+08:00

好想重温中四那年的毕业晚会。还是别怀念当时恶心的画面。哈哈。从另一个角度看，夜晚的滨海艺术中心可美丽极了。缤纷夺目的灯彩，加上对面那座雄伟的鱼尾狮和商区的高楼，别有一番风情。我静静的走向鱼尾狮，慢慢的放下沉重的包袱。然后，小心翼翼的吃油条豆花，脸上挂着一丝微笑。

事不宜迟，我加快脚步走向麦当劳。只买了一杯冰美禄，就可呆上足足5个小时。还用手提电脑，电话充电，享受空调啦，真划算！除了上网和朋友聊天，我也为步伐牛车水的事计划一下（以免迷路）。

很可爱的邮信筒吧（上）！我被警察查身份证，他以为我离家出走！

慈祥的老人，你好像被遗弃。要不然，为何大清早打瞌睡？

我也来凑一脚, 当一下苦力吧。

（上）有名的脚车店和天福宫。我祈祷身边的人健康快乐。

（上）大中国月饼使用猪油做的，色香味俱全！好有罪恶感喔！

其实要说的话，多着呢。还是照片比较实在，免得闷着。当太阳晒到屁股时，我还在睡觉呢。原来，宁静的克拉码头在太阳照射下，是那么的迷人。看着洁净的河畔，我的心境也跟着安稳许多。辽阔的天空啊，天大地大，一定有我容身之处。

话说回来，我也真会走啊！从牛车水到克拉码头，我居然穿过乌节路，不知不觉走到新加坡理工学院！厉害吧。我八成是疯了贝。

我就到此为此。有空的话也试试看，见广见闻。

Backpack (Bugis) Part 1

2008-02-19T01:55:00.004+08:00

背着沉重的背包，身上带着区区的10元5角和一张易通卡，我头也不回的离开家门。虽然，露宿街头仅仅两天，心情却异常的愉快。一个人的自由是那种感觉的吗？那种无忧无虑，轻松又很真实的踏出每一步。如果，人生也能那样的自在，那该有多好啊？

严格来说，我对新加坡的文化一点概念也没有。除了，陪妈妈拜访鼎鼎有名的观音堂佛祖庙，平时我也很少烧香拜佛。我是新一代新加坡人，那种没有用的年轻人吧。最擅长的是“临时抱佛脚”。哈哈。一旦有机会从新认识新加坡的文化，我绝对不弱人后。其实，我们这个小不点的岛上，也有多姿多彩的背景！

我好想看那部喜剧片！沿着无人的小路，却被阵阵呼吸声给吓着。周边都是树木，乌漆抹黑的，本以为是我疑心病重，却让我看到了他。真是的！孟加拉先生，你已经够黑了，还身穿黑衣黑裤。吓死我了！

好不容易到达新达成，当着少数人前我赶紧拍张照。一个人也能自拍，好吗？挥别不愉快的历史，不由自主地跳起来！心里开心的呐喊， “我是幸福的！” 因为我生长在无战争的国家里，丰衣足食的过好日子！

Let's go Phuture... and WHAT!?

2008-02-17T10:34:00.009+08:00

"You can't call him that, only his mother can say it. Be careful." she warned.

I was deceived by the photograph of him. He's irresistibly adorable yet dumb. I was not being mean, just tactful. I was proven wrong but I was half right about it. He looks dumb in photograph, and he wasn't in "person". He is indeed dumb because he doesn't bark.

I can't help but fall in love with him. I was afraid it won't work out and it did well. Sorry Roni (below), I promised I won't call you stupid again. I love you.

We went Jeremy's place to drink, get into the mood before head down to Phuture. Unfortunately, we were too late and the ticket sold out. None of us were keen on Zouk, so we decided to try St James Power House. Again, we didn't went in because it wasn't our cup of tea. So, we went next door to have supper (Station Kitchen).

" ... jamie looks so fair and got cleavage ... " quoted from Wei Ling.

I was expecting a night of fun, meeting new people and here I am tasting food around Singapore. Jeremy drove us to Geylang famous frog porridge. It was two thumbs up, yummy I would said.

I can't quite finish the barley drink I've ordered. The auntie actually helped me to fill into a packet. It wasn't comfortable to hold it while eating. So I drop "off" on the clay pot. The clique felt that I was very "auntie". C'mon, you mean you wanted to hold for me? Stop kidding, okay.

If cam whoring at the dining table wasn't enough, please proceed to the restroom for different angle shot. Still at Geylang, not prostituting ourselves of course, despite our dress code. We started to snap picture in front of the mirror.

Looked into each other's eyes and we started to yawn. It has been a long night going from one place to another. I joked with Jeremy to take us in and he agreed readily. Wei Ling and I stayed over until 8am for the train service. Give you a peek at our "true color" after removed our make up.

"even the prettiest girls have got their ugly side..." quoted from Wei Ling.

I watched "The Heartbreak Kid", while she read... and she was unconscious for a few hours. I didn't know she's a heavy sleeper. Do you know what she told me afterwards? An effective way to wake her up, give her a ring on the phone.

That's a typical teenager for you, so am I.

CLT Forum/Fiesta

2008-02-16T02:00:00.004+08:00

I haven't stepped into HQ NCC for awhile. It feels the same but it's quieter now. The security at the front gate is stricter. Now, they are enforcing the rules. That's like finally. I didn't get to see my beloved dada (gary pek). What a pity.

Instead, I spotted many new faces. I feel like a fresh member in the family, walking through crowds who I don't know. It was awkward. Thankfully, Hui Ru was there for me. She has always been a great buddy, who comes in "handy" all the time. I miss her sarcasm actually.

I walked alongside her to the seats in the MPH and whispered into her ears, "NCC is still that cock up after 2 years." and she smiled back at me.

Soon, the emcee urged the crowd to settle down and began the forum. Mostly, regarding the new rules implemented into the system. Yet, I was disappointed once again that HQ was not keen in supporting tertiary NCC club. Basically in our own term, "all talk, no action."

BULLSHIT! That is it. Whatever, it's not like I'm going to benefit from it. Let's put the political issue aside.

The fiesta wasn't that fantastic as commented by Hajar/Hui Ru but it was my first time participating such event. I enjoyed the food first, followed by the activty. In between we slacked with Shamsul in the office. The highlight of the day wasn't the live singing but the dancefloor.

Commandant called it "disco night" and that's out dated. It was unexpected how well and wild NCC people can get at the floor. A look at them and they resemble hardcore clubber. I'm sure they are and Azril's gang actually went to MOS after the whole thing. How spontaneous!

I didn't even club before... suaku (hokkien: ignorant).

西方情人节

2008-02-14T23:50:00.004+08:00

I survived Valentine Day.

Thanks Eric and Leslie for the company. I love the jean rose.

You always make me feel special, like a little sister.

2008-02-13T23:22:00.003+08:00

we argued over stupid thing.

i hate you girls.

it's not my fault if you can't read properly.

damn you.

Thanks Chee Kian for accompanying me today.

Please stay cute, Mr (Adam) Quek!

random

2008-02-13T22:26:00.002+08:00

http://speedtest.10-fast-fingers.com/

LET'S SEE HOW FAST YOU CAN TYPE!

I'M 80 WORD PER MINUTE. CAN YOU BEAT ME?

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12th February

The class went Lilian's house 拜年。Her mother is a 赌后 and really young! Sherlyn (Ban Luck Queen) and Hui Sing (Kok Leng Queen) have finally met their match on a game on blackjack! Cherie and Yong Lun lost about $20 each. It was an unexpected loss.

As for me, I won $3 and it went to my dinner at Chinatown. Yong Lun treated me sugarcane drink. Don't give me the look that I'm like 骗吃骗喝。I'm not denying it that I AM! =)

13th February

Due to unforeseen circumstances, I didn't meet up with Clement. What a waste. There's goes my Botak Jones.

Badminton Day

2008-02-12T23:30:00.004+08:00

Mel said, "jamie looks like she's dancing. tio boh? lol" in her blog.

How'd she managed to take such ugly pose!? I was playing HARD!

There she goes, "...now fencing."

my daughter, Mel(issa). John/Keith not invited to show here. JK!

全身酸痛！ Apart from double, she didn't play a proper game at all.
But, we played well as a team. ^5 girl. =)

Thanks to you.

2008-02-12T23:16:00.002+08:00

Building Construction Supervisor Safety Course. I took the exam today, with 100 MCQ to tackle and it was wacky. I know the title of the course sounds "chim" and it's not really what you think it is - somehow. It's organized by MOM (Ministry of Manpower), and not my MOM (mother).

An idiot said that to me, "heng ar, my mother never send me for such funny lesson. why ya mom so strict?" I'm speechless.

Aloha Estelle (aka Min Yee). Look at that blue pick up, Allan drove that to school. He took all 10 of us, including himself to west coast for lunch. Allan is smart, humourous and nice. He's really friendly. We love his company! Oh, I sat at the front seat because I wore dress to school. How lucky.

Mel lived behind the store. She lives in a TOWNHOUSE! Get it? She told me the standard dropped. It used to taste better. I think it's average - at the moment. At one point, my ice tea got an insect, I told Hui Sing and she immediately call for the waiter.

I thought...

She was nice to ask him to change for me. Instead she requested, "one more plate of curry!" I was expecting this, "uncle, help me change this drink. there's ant." She never failed to surprise me. Totally.

That's her, trying to squeeze into the front seat with stephanie and me. skinny bitch* love. haha

Valentine Preparation

2008-02-11T23:55:00.000+08:00

幸福的日子 - 大家认同的西方情人节（2月14日）

我嘛？也没什么好预备的啦！我不孤单，也不难过。只想一个人静静的坐在一望无际的大海前，听听海浪和吹吹海风。那可是一种享受，不是因心灵的空虚才想那么做。你明白吗？

Before meeting my dearest bestie, I went City Square, JB to shop for shoes. To my disappointment, they ain't as cheap as I thought to be. Nonetheless, I went to Plaza Singapura and met up with them. (Above) Some sample of anniversary card, Cherie wants to DIY it.

After walking around a few interesting outlet, we dropped by Times. I spotted Patrick's imitation, an ugly one indeed. Its eyes do not send out sparks.

Camwhoring, probably not the best word to use here. It has been a tiring day, I have not started revising for Safety Course Exam (tomorrow). I'm so dead, I know.

Without further a do, Ajisen here I (we) come! Personally, I like ramen (handmade noodle) but it must have a good soup base.

看见她俩为情人节忙，心想了想 - 一个人也能过的幸福快乐。不用为礼物得事烦恼，心情非常好！哈哈。

2008-02-11T22:46:00.000+08:00

photoshop-per, daphne

Lau Pa Sat

2008-02-10T23:40:00.004+08:00

Award Winning Photo: Satay went up to nostril

Time checked: 12:43am, 10 February 2008

We went to Jeremy's house for BLACKJACK until 4am. This is the 3rd time I went home late in the year. I was winning as a banker and the hosts stopped me from leaving my place. It was until I lost half of my winnings, then they decided to call it a day.

SCAMERS.

You know who you are. Especially the one who stuck satay up her... NOSE!

2008-02-10T23:00:00.001+08:00

I don't want to recall how I was cheated by my best friend/her boyfriend.

I just want to say, that KFC delivery man was cute. Thanks for smiling at me and ignoring Wei Ling. She's not pleased at the unfair treatment. I thought he would prefer her because he's a malay and she looks like one.

Nonetheless, Wei Ling is still pretty as compared to me. *smiles.

Yes, Cherie invited the clique to her place once again. I refuse to jot down the event, we had.

Where's my BARCADI mixed???

2008-02-10T22:40:00.000+08:00

Taylor Swift, Teardrop on my Guitar

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll be she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough for me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

2008-02-08T01:27:00.005+08:00

CNY itself, was a screwed up.

I didn't get to watch the movie I wanted, and LOUSY JASMINE did it without us.

She went to watch Ah Long Pte Ltd with her family (my cousin). She done it without us, the elite team. This year, the elite team in the family is at least 14 years old. They are:

Sheena, Jamie, Jeremy, Jovin, Jasmine and Melvin.
(according to age and experience)

Guess what, they are my nieces and nephews. I'm their 表姨. I know that sounds like 辈分很高，也很老气. I can't help it when my Aunty is 18 years older than my mother.

Oh, if you must know, I got no more than $100 of red packet that day.

I did a calculation for my mother.

Position/$
DY - 12
SG - 4
ND - 8
SM - 20
JM - 6
MM - 12
KM -12
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Total: $72
Grand Total (plus brother): $72 + $68 = $140

Given out: - $280

Total Damage: $140

OMG! OMG!

CNY Eve

2008-02-06T22:20:00.001+08:00

Beyond words and explanation. For 5 pax consumption, what you see here will lasts my family 3 days 2 nights. Must I mention, the food was delicious? I hope the standard maintain until the 3rd day.

2008-02-06T01:50:00.001+08:00

I was enthusiastic for the arrival of CNY. I completely understand I have a list of to do list to achieve.

Things to do by 7th February 2008, 0000 hours.

Do not revise for Safety Course Test
Do watch television programme the whole night
Do online and play games
Do ...

But my mother said,

Wash all the dishes
Clear away unwanted clothes/books
Vacuum the floor
Clean the bookshelves
Prepare steamboat/bbq
Mop the floor
Prepare red packet
and many more...

Just as I thought my big plans for CNY's eve can be fulfil, I caught a cold. How disappointing, lying through the night at the comfort of an air-con room. That's sarcastic.

I do look forward to tonight's dinner. It going to be sinful to my tummy. I predict I be fatter by the end of next 15 days.

Demoraliz-ing.

Rashiqah Bday

2008-02-05T23:06:00.001+08:00

(stay tune for more photos)

Today, is considerably our Judgement Day.

We'd our FYP Final Grade Presentation, I believe we got ourselves a B Grade and not an A Grade. I think it's okay, as we ain't that well prepared. At least, the lecturers are fighting among themselves over us. =)

That's something to happy about.

That aside, we (sijie, lilian n i) went to celebrate Rashiqah's 20th birthday at the above restaurant. The food was delicious, not totally exotic but still good for my taste bud.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RASH!

We spent our time there chilling, and daidee. Rashiqah actually played with us. I was astonised! The place was remarkably relaxing and we enjoyed ourselves alot.

I missed 2 lessons for Building Construction Supervisor Safety Course by MOM.

And I say, JIALAT!

she's a-okay

2008-02-03T20:22:00.000+08:00

I happened to change my purse, and took a look at my First Aid card. I'm certified to perform first aid, yet I left that poor lady... I mean, she's drunk, injured, in good hands and I'm done. Although the one attended to her was a Life Saver, not certified First Aider.

Let's recall the crime scene.

We didn't see her fall, but judging from her position, it's a slip and fall situation. According to her height and weight, she fell on her head. That was sign of bleeding. No bandage, I can't wrap her head. From my understanding, she's suffering from cut and concussion.

She was drunk, you can't expect much response but she wasn't yelling in pain. I observed her and she's fine. No need for muscle squeeze, why add on her pain? She definitely need a few no. of stitches on her head. Poor thing.

Stop telling me I speak in sarcasm, okay! I mean she's really fine, she needs an ambulane and we got it for her already.

She's in good hands. I try to look away but I start to feel bad about not doing anything physically. Wait, if you can't do much, dont crowd around. Save her from unknowing embarassment.

You know what the paramedic always say... that's for some of you to find out.

I was impressed that those guys have a heart for troubled lady. Well, we have a good side in us. Let's look at the sunny side, that lady going to be alright.

EEE Annual Dinner & Dance

2008-02-03T17:33:00.000+08:00

Singapore Polytechnic; I will miss this place.

Besides Yong Sheng, the rest of us have unofficially graduated. At Le Meridien Hotel, it marks the end of milestone. Every ending opens a new chapter, that will not be the last gathering. Wolfpackers will have an activity next time with full strength of twelve.

(Clockwise) ME! Adelin, Malcolm, Yong Sheng, Guo Xiong, Yi Long & Mike

Adelin & I: Open minded // Malcolm's friends: Conservative (haha)

ME! and Wei Zhan (virtual friend)

I must say I changed my impression of engineering guys. Oh yes, it's positive feedback. They are adorable, okay. I just can't stop laughing at the hilarious actions/words from the group I'm with pre/post ADD. Life is wonderful with good funny people around.

I love the stroll. I love the bus ride. I love the serenity.

Thanks to you-know-who. Really.

p.s. I'm relieved. It didn't turn out to be my disasterous prom night sequel.

2008-01-31T22:47:00.000+08:00

Not to oversee, Cherie's unselfishness in lending me her precious dress for EEE Annual Dinner and Dance. I have complimented you in public, are you satisfied? It's a beautiful dress, nice foresight!

I believe everyone shares the same sentiment, that we all have a special day to look forward to. C'mon make a guess!? Hello, it's THE PAY DAY! Money make the world go round, wait, isn't that superficial? Who cares, you can't live without money, seriously.

I love being NAPFA TESTER! (I love the money they paying me)

My main concern wasn't being caught for scandalous affair. I was mocked at by this auntie in the bus. What's wrong with using IKEA bag after shopping at IKEA and filled it with IKEA products?

I just want to organize my bookcase for Chinese New Year what. Spring cleaning you know. I'm halfway done only. hmpfh* (okay, standard english, i try) =)

2008-01-31T01:40:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, life is really unfair and we wish we can do it all over. Yet, someone reminded me something is over and done with. Let's keep our sight looking forward. Don't dwell on the past and be focus. That's life anyway, you don't get a second chance in almost everything you do.

I caught up with Cherie and went to her place right at the eastern part of Singapore. Usually, people go there for merry making (I understand that Sex is not part of it.) If you have got it right, then you're right.

That feminine soul is not graceful in her posture at home. (I won't tell anyone about your...) To keep my mouth shut, and to stuff it tight too, I was given a few pieces of luxury goods. The last thing, I want to hear from her, apart from "Have a safe trip home", she said - "Wish you miss your last train".

In my mind, a question has been repeating itself - "Is she really my best friend?" It was a hit at the bull eye, accurately aim from a distance few bus stop away. Upon stepping into the zone, the train service ended, right before my eyes that the train left swiftly. I must express my utmost "appreciation" to this beautiful young lady.

I checked my purse and there's $50 change to last until Sunday. I "plucked" up my courage and approached one of the taxi.

"Uncle, I only have $20 cash, can you take me to Choa Chu Kang please?" It was 11:45pm and I boarded the cab, then the uncle realized it was a mistake to accept my offer.

HE WAS NICE YET VIOLENT! (It's personal, I "promised" to be a listener)

We were trapped in a road block, there was massive jam @ 12:20am around Bukit Timah and I saw the meter jumping. My heart jumped as well, more of sign of relief that I saved 30% of the fare (from Pasir Ris).

You, people must be thinking Jamie is a Bitch. That uncle is making a living and there she's cheating his feeling. I confessed to God knows who, that I lied. That man praised I was a good liar. It wasn't a comforting one. Thanks for the sarcasm, I sensed it.

could it be the last...

2008-01-29T23:57:00.000+08:00

It does not matter if it's good or bad, everything bound to come to an end. I'm glad I'm almost there yet I felt uneasy. The first breathe of freedom brings one step closer to reality - working society. But first, let's comment how today went by - *poof.

After all the trying of past year paper and plenty of mugging, the expected question didn't come out. Nonetheless, whatever we memorized didn't flow out much as well. Our final paper, namely the Building Services 3, we ended up spinning stories to make up our insufficient answer. I would said, "We're not alone!" with a loud laughters.

DPFM/3B02 *Fish n' Co Glass House

I like their sense of humour.

It was nicely aimed. aku markmen! =)

Rashiqah commented that Xiu Rong make a better drag' queen as compared to Yong Lun. I can't deny that XR is borned with acting talent. His ability is to make people smile. Apart from that, the four of us went to catch a movie: The Mist (Novel by Stephen King)

This author never fail in his thriller, its ending left me devastated. I'm bothered to bother why it has to end this way. My heart simply aches for the main character.

I'm sorry, "SHIT HAPPENS!"

2008-01-29T00:04:00.000+08:00

Our friendship is disgusted.

2008-01-28T03:44:00.000+08:00

I fake a smile so he won't see, the teardrop on my face.

My heart might be aching, my eyes might be tearing and my mind says, I still love him. Nevermind about his unresponsive behaviour, I was redundent to him once. That word itself can lasts me a long time.

Reach out for a hand I can't hold, a figure I can't forget and the smile on his face that meant for others. I love myself, definitely I do.

Listening to his voice clip through my cell phone, I can't help but cry again. Am I that detestable? That you are more than willing to see me suffering? Those marks on my elbow, only prove to be history of pain you left me with.

I let out a loud cry to someone who barely hear me now. Why did it turn out like this?

2008-01-28T01:44:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, shall be my last examination paper - I hope so. Beside that, another reason to celebrate is my 3rd month of singlehood (in advance). I deleted his comments off friendster, but the real truth, I compiled it so I can read it over and over again.

I wrote a couple of emails to him then, he never reply a single of it. I admitted it was my bad to start that awful argument. I was unintentional, I was fearful of losing someone I bonded so well with. No one's perfect, that doesn't mean I won't want to make changes or improvements that I desire for myself. We changed to be better, and you decided to run away.

Over thrown by anger and worries, I can't handle a proper communication with you. I won't doubt your trust if you have been honest to me. Yes, a guy doesn't stop knowing or liking girls, even in a relationship. It got me thinking how faithful can someone be for as long as possible.

Don't run from conflict, you never bother to answer my question. Because of you, I failed to manage my emotions. I don't play games, pressure or manipulate someone in a relationship. I believe in being true to someone I love. In a close relationship, it is inevitable to have conflict. Can't we be more open minded to it?

I might have violated your bottom line and dignity by verbal abuse. Yet, I was left with no choice. I suffered a loss, I have grieved and I still feel sorry about myself. Wiping away teardrops on my laptop, I try to close the chapter and move on.

For once, the sadness over a breakup takes control of my life, I have no direction. Perhaps, you have fixed your pain. I can't hear what you don't say to me. I just can't be expected to know what's on your mind.

I want to be told and listen to every word you say.

That could be the best thing in my life, and to receive an embrace from you.

Don't ever make excuses or dismiss my presence, stop me from weeping no more.

2008-01-26T09:33:00.000+08:00

I never have the drive of desire to understand myself or find a place in the world. I need no high profile or personal significance, much less being an individualist. I was labelled a "pirate", that said I don't go for originality. I said that is source of inspiration.

Hey, I'm ruled by empathy. Being analytical most of the times, I was deemed The Perfectionist. Unfortunately, my compassion rule over the aggressive side of my self. I love the way how my physical involvement in the local community can bring joys to others. I reach out my hand for those outcry I heard. It's not sympathy but a naive thought that the world is a safe place to be in.

I choose to believe everything going to be alright, it's a choice I made. That applies on the perspective of that glass of water, if it is half full or half empty. In the simple pleasure in life, is to smile each day, loose your body and ease your mind. Do no more soul searching, I have looked deep inside once.

Life like this, I have to say it has been good. Be contented with what your have, cherish it while you can and don't ever let the cynical side get into you. Optimistism never goes wrong, perhaps, it's living in deniel for some people (like me).

Repeating delete my former entries, unposted for the past 4 days. I'm not hiding my childish thoughts but to share the best of it, finally.

I guess you learn something about me today.

2008-01-24T22:16:00.000+08:00

Hit by anxiety attack, it's my examination paper today! Let's keep this part short, it was a fairly well done paper. I'm satisfied with my performance, now is to check out the results in February.

Moving on from that, my class loves to indulge in good food, entertainment and the company of one another. They are adorable and humourous. I'm thankful I have them in my life, to share joys and sorrows. It has been a long time since I hang out with them and take wacky photographs.

Lilian/Cherie led the way to Rochor Original Beancurb You Tiao shop near Paradiz Centre. The food tasted good because there's good companion. Cherie/Rashiqah and I watched 27 dresses @ The Grand Cathay for just $6/ticket. It's reasonably priced, if you have watched the movie.

I shall end here, I don't know what I'm typing either. What a random entry. I just wanna say, I LOVE MY LIFE COS I HAVE WONDERFUL FRIENDS!

Drunk Dialing

2008-01-23T22:55:00.000+08:00

"I'm drunk. I'm drunk." said a tipsy soul, with a smile on his face.

It is said that drunk dialing typically takes place late at night when the caller returns home from an eventful evening at a gathering that involves alcohol. While still inebriated, the individual call selected individual in order to engage them in nonsensical or undesirable conversation at odd hours (3:10am) of the night.

I barely know the individual, it is forgiven (to myself) that I don't know he has drunk dialing problem. I might hold a mobile phone hostage once intoxication devours it's owner's better judgement. In a less than sober situation, I would cave in to pleas for its release.

Drunk dialers is a drunkard who express his actions through phonecall. It's a good thing I can't see what he's doing. I vividly recalled the past experience with my classmates, I was abused. Sometimes, it's amusing to know the comical side of them yet they are being real. Simply put into words, drunkards can be pushy and indiscriminate.

Individual who call anyone who might answer, leave messages for those who don't and continue to plumb the entries in their phone books until they are finally greeted with a sleepy, often cranky voice. In the sober light of day, some try deleting the phone numbers of people they want to avoid calling, only to learn that there are some digits even a few chiva drink won't let you forget.

Undeniably, the real problem is not with gadgets of instant gratification, but with consuming too much alcohol. It's probably not a good sign that most of the proposals for reform focus on the technology, not on the drinking. But until we manage to end inebriation, we can at least work on protecting the rest of the world's right to uninterrupted sleep.

Enneagram

2008-01-22T23:14:00.000+08:00

For your information, Enneagram of Personality theory consists a Enneagram figure that indicates nine principal ego-archetypal forms (human personality).

The Idealist
The Humanitarian
The Entertainer
The Expressive
The Experimenter
The Advocate
The Adventurer
The Leader
The Negotiator

As a Type 9:The Negotiator, people might likely to appreciate the unpretentious way about myself. As well, the good natured approach I might take to relationships and life in general. Friends, family, and colleagues apt to know that when they come to me with a problem, I can be counted on to be reassuring and patient.

As a Negotiator, I am likely to be seen as a good moderator and communicator who emphasizes finding equitable, amicable resolutions to problems.

This means that compared to the eight other Enneagram types, I have a strong sense of inner peace and stability that drives me to resolve conflicts, or potential conflicts, in my path. I am, an individual who can probably be committed to healing myself and others while balancing myself with a happiness that comes from life's simple pleasures.

However, I am prone to dissociation and passive-aggressive behaviour. One thing for sure, my holy idea in life is Love and...

I want assurance for it.

2008-01-22T02:43:00.000+08:00

Joel
09/12/2007 12:27 pm
i miss you too... luving ya right here & right now..

Joel
09/12/2007 12:06 pm
i told you i might go out tonite. if see me not online after long gorest first when i called you.. maybe i wasn't clear enuff.. was out till 12 with my sis..results are out dearie.. goodluckkae..will definately COME online today at 11 pm.. its shopping DAY 2.. gonna head down to jay jay fer you..cya later..

Joel
07/30/2007 12:52 pm
mud bath fun ~ muahaha...had fun in a double with you...feels good over the high waves with someone i love..heez..~BEAR hugs~

Joel
07/11/2007 4:02 pm
stop yawning with ur mouth so BIG ?!?!

Joel
06/22/2007 10:53 pm
ur editing skills is over the top i must say..like our make-over as taiwanese SUPERSTARs.. enjoyed my day with you at sentosa..

Joel
03/23/2007 12:41 am
wanna leave you a SURPRISE before i go on my dive trip..need i explain more..~hee hee...one of the many crazy moments we spent..with many more to come..loote ya loads..*Bearie Hugs*

Joel
12/15/2006 2:56 pm
hey baby..here i am in THAILAND,writing this testi fer ya..heez..i wanted to write this earlier but the internet service they provide is only working today =D.. I'm here just to tell you how much i missed you during my trip..kkae..i'll be seeing you REAL soon..iLu~p.S : ur bag is seriously hard to locate..hope you like wat i chose..Muackx..

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Mel* did not exactly forced me to say, "I dislike Joel. Move on Jamie!"

"In life, when it doesn't require us to think so much, dont think! When we keep things simple, we see a better life =)" I shall heed your overdue advice, stupid stitchie head!

"Acceptance, is the first step to (recovery) be alright." as said by zhanzhan.

Sometimes, I'm lost in my thoughts, who exactly I am to this individual. I need no well wishes but sincere treatment. LOVE, shall it be? I wonder who will melt the snow in my heart?

Oh yes, keep our thoughts simple! =)

"That's your ex boyfriend for you!" I will bear that in mind, I feel the double edged sword on my throat. Deadly.

2008-01-22T01:01:00.000+08:00

The second announcement: Greenie is backed from China! (i love you, weiling)

In life, nothing is perfect. Why do all the good things come to an end? I don't understand, perhaps, nothing lasts forever. At least, my girlfriends will not turn to foes. That will be worst than a friend turning to stranger. (sidetrack) I'm thankful she's backed in one piece, all healthy and pretty! You can't believe how much envious I have for you, babe.

It may not be a total surprise, a great welcome but I hope you don't mind our usual mocking tone. You know we don't mean to angry you. In fact, we're overjoyed. You will get used to my new found lighter Jamie. *skinny is cool. =)

The third announcement: FYP is recommended for A Grade.

The interview has been scheduled and I'm thrilled. I'm at loss of words but I picked up my phone and started dialling numbers. If it has been 3 month ago, Joel would be the first to know. Judging by the situation we are at, the roles we are playing, I see myself in no position informing him.

I was grinning from ear to ear, heart pounding fast and words started pouring out, as soon the other end of the phone was responding. I can't contain my contentment that fell beyond submission. Spinnovex was the optional checkpoint and we were taken out from the showcase. I assume, that marked the end of everything.

All the nervous breakdown I had last week, the flu bug and all, seem to disappear upon the announcement. The team was motivated to study. Be careful what you wish for, said Rashiqah. I laughed at the remark, I never thought there'll be continuation.

If an A shall not, a B shall be tho. Let's be contented with what we have so far. That applies to other area in life too.

2008-01-21T21:00:00.000+08:00

My examinations will commence on 24th and they will end in 29th. My itchy fingers are tapping on the keyboard, even if it is the "exam period". Well, here I am blogging for my regular readers.

The first announcement: I'm fit to study (in peace). BYE BYE viruses! *waves*

[Thank you peeps, for the well wishes and concerns. I will be fine, I promise!]

Last week, my emotion's running on ultra-fluctuation mode. Apart from my cough and sneeze, that marked my presence in school (which I found it irritating), I was at verge of a breakdown. Trembling pitches of a voice and random teary outbursts - I never anticipated I would cried in front of my lecturers.

I feel strangely lethargic, drowsy all the time. It could be the medication that I'm taking or an excuse to run away from reality. None of their kind words motivate me, perhaps, they were right about me. I stressed on my academic performance, worries were unfounded, uncalled for but they seem real. I was indeed concern about the grades. I feel I have let you down - my lecturers, my parents and myself.

If only, there's Happy Pill that bring me joy and soothe my tied-up nerves. Anxiety attack is still pretty new thing for me.

That aside, to some individual negativity (pride) hurts. There is a fine line between judgements and prejudices. Conflicts that arise, which one would have hoped to bury six feet under and disappeared from sight, seem to to keep popping out every now and then. However, an individual decided to be cynical instead of critical. Neither is appreciated for it's criticism, that comes with sarcasm.

A passing remark, intentionally or unintentionally has left another individual a heavy heart.

No one

2008-01-18T13:11:00.000+08:00

Devastated.

Looking back at those times, the tears I have cried and the pain I have endured. No one but me, understood it all. Again, who am I fighting for? My direction in life, apart from you, is to fight for myself. Suddenly, I see a flash of white light calling me...

Everything going to be alright.

2008-01-15T14:30:00.000+08:00

The watch was ticking and it stopped. A glasses-less me, can't read what's on the whiteboard. I took out my mobile phone and hid under the shawl. Constantly looking at the time and I was caught red-handed by the invigilator.

"Surrender your phone to me." I obediently listened to his command.

A worried sick me, perspired profusely. Cold sweat. I saw double vision and my pen fell off my hand. Many times, I dropped flat on the table. Uncontrollable cough and sneeze. It was difficult to recall the answer for the test question. I have studied so hard and my brain wasn't functioning.

Reluctantly, I raised up my already weak arm to ask for permission. Judging from his facial expression, with my blurred vision, he looked concern at my pale face. Every step I took there, I felt like falling. I decided to drop out from my paper.

"High fever, almost 39 degree. You're experiencing side effects of it."

It was shocking. The doctor ended the session with - "If you continue the bad habit of not eating well, you're at risk of anorexia."

That said, I'm showing symptoms. I don't know how she knew but it's scaring me. Im not at the drastic end of weight loss. I'm maintaining a good unhealthy 7kilo loss for the past 2.5 months.

Medicine claimed to have little drowsiness effect was a lie. It put me to sleep almost immediately. I have yet to complete my revision for tomorrow's paper. I can't afford to cure the illness at the rate I'm going.

I have no choice but I'm not alone in this battle. Pray me good luck and health!

2008-01-14T01:38:00.000+08:00

"Please stay away from this man."

I smiled back at the comment left by some individual. I was asking for friendly advice, yet remaining in permanent crisis. The man who has ruined my life, my trust for love, consume my ability to stay alive. Fat salty tears flew down my cheeks, formed rows of broken string pearls. I tried to choke back and swallow it.

I grew up in a traditional family, most of the time we're happy. At the same time, I was preached by my pessimistic mother. No man will love a woman forever, nor be faithful. "Till death do us apart" was merely a storyline. I used to cry under my blanket when they were at edge of divorce.

I was afraid of men, I dare not enter a relationship readily. I was vulnerable.

And I thought every time I'm with you, never want it to come to an end. You told me it won't come to a stop, yet it did. You always make me so happy. You'll always have a place in my heart. What's all said and done, things usually don't go the way we wanted it to. Oh, I just have to believe what mother has preached.

I failed to decipher the underlying meaning of that individual. I have attempted to read more on the surface details. The uncertainty provided by the individual, left me crying for more answers. Stuck in the maze, looking up the stars for direction, only to find a cloudy sky. Surrounded by concrete walls, I searched my way out in the dark.

At the end of the maze, familiar faces that never give up on me. They knew I have put down that mask, still frozen in fear yet... I reached out my arms and welcome them in. An embrace I longed from that individual will never come. A love gone stale will never be fresh. My friendship with other individual will remain forever, they are indeed my true love.

I know I will heal from the broken heart. One day, I will find myself back.

Un-official Graduation (29 Jan)

2008-01-12T04:40:00.000+08:00

Thanks to Alexis and clique, we took our first (Year 3) class photo together.

It's polaroid shot, I'm excited okay? =)

Another day, another month and so will another year pass us by. These years have passed us by so fast, it seems like I never got the chance to realize how good life really was. I have words left unsaid in my heart. Will there be another day that you may hear them out?

Let's throw our hands up in the sky. And let the moment lasts, it feels like it was only yesterday. No more hanging out, and we are heading different track. Knock on my door, leave me a message, I will be there when you need me still.

When we walked in this place and I said I can't wait till I get out of here. Now, as we walk down this aisle with three years all rolled up in a scroll. I can't help but think, "Hey, where did the time go?"

I will remember you and all the things we had gone through.

Come whatever, we be friends forever.

2008-01-12T03:18:00.000+08:00

Chocolate wedding cake, Breadtalk
Claypot sesame oil chicken with rice, Clementi Central Main Hawker Centre
Battered fried fish and chips, Chippy: British take away
Chicken chop with egg, Singapore Polytechnic FC 1

Most recommended dish from ja'miie

You have to try it, to know what I mean by - Yummy!

Tense Affair

2008-01-11T06:49:00.000+08:00

Characters: C – Comedian, H – Hypocrite and V – Villain.

Once upon a time, the king sent out an order to his kingdom. “I need brave warriors to safeguard the national treasure from the barbarians.” Three young men, C, H and V were selected to perform the ultimate task.

C, handles transport of the gem to and forth the secret room. H, watch out for suspicious characters in the vicinity. V, ensure the security of the showcasing. It was a well planned strategy, until… an occurrence of negligent.

V has left the casing unlock and within seconds, the gem was stolen. A righteous looking H encouraged V to push blame on C. An innocent C pacing at the nearby yard was approached by an angry (ulterior motive) V (to cover up his ass).

No explanation, no clarification and C was reprimanded for his slack. H (Jealousy man) was no kind soul, and can’t hide a fraction of his cunning smile. V marched towards the General and reported C on his unrepentant behavior. H came forward, patted C’s shoulder and mocked, “Loser. You’ll never survive. Stop pretending, to be Mr. Nice.”

“That’s it. I was half believer-half cynical. Now it all shows how pathetic some people are.” C cried out in his head. He has to face the possibility of execution for failure to complete the task. C sneaked out of the castle and stepped on a journey for the lost treasure.

When there’s a will, there’s a way. To the unknown parties, C found the missing treasure. He presented the lost gem to the King and was spared from execution.

What’s all said and done. Being away from the cross fire zone, might not be a bad thing. Some angry words are better left unsaid. Despite the fact that people were sabotaging, the jaded feelings C has inside him: Yet, what doesn't break you, make you stronger.

You never know who’s having the last laugh.

- fast forward fictional story -

Masquerade

2008-01-11T03:00:00.000+08:00

Emotions, nothing but the mere feelings of the heart. If you really love someone, you will set them free. Love is selfless. I say, love is possession and not sacrificial. I heard the true meaning of love, easily articulated but not practice. I, in my subconscious desire for simple love, often not found.

People masqueraded in our presence, careful analysed of their choice of words and actions. Carefully planned, yet carelessly shown. No one said it will be easy to find trust in complete stranger. If you have readily given yours away, don't be surprised, to be found lying in a pool of blood. The brutally act of honesty, an individual can get at the end of worthiness used by another individual. (continuing convo with cherie, adam & weizhan)

Yet, it is not often the unknown party who caught you unprepared. Betrayal, from those once hold dear to me (or anyone), I can't help but think - who they really are behind that mask of pretence? I'm beginning to feel the signs of lethargy. (continuing convo with cherie)

Love is selfish. In an attempt, to deny the expected but not expected truth. Some individual fall deeper into self proclaimed trap, a human mudslide that prevents them from standing up. How about investing a pair of Teva sandals, to trek better through the slippery ground? Well, it is inevitable for one to live in denial. (continuing convo with weizhan)

I have my fair share of life, that I mastered the art of lying through one's teeth. Words come out like an overflowing cup from the running tap. And such addiction, on the less appreciated defensive behaviour, that no one exactly knew me. It all comes with age and experience.

That aside, how far will you go to prove love is not a possession. Perhaps, love is blind in the first place. It blurred your vision to see through the clouds above your head. Sometimes, you think with your head, rather with your heart. Love is illogical, rationally said but not specially done.

The illusion of heart pumping fast, adrenaline rush that set your face red. "Oh, I'm in love." Think again, are you consuming alcohol that gave the you-swept-me-off-my-feet feeling?

My conclusion to you is, you're drunk.

flashback on Siloso Beach Party

2008-01-07T23:58:00.000+08:00

Cheers, to a New Year! I should have shown the Tiger Beer logo on the cup. Do we look like party-goers?

Looking back at each event of my life in 2007, it all involved Joel. Let it be happiness or sadness, nothing can be better than an embrace from him. I gave up trying to recall 2007, it ended with a high note: Nothing lasts forever.

The screaming crowds, the unexpected black men and the beautiful firework explosion. I was standing behind the deafening setting, looking up at the sky. Goodbye, depression. One by one, it went up, exploded and scattered into joys. I felt myself smiling then.

I love you, but you don't belong to me anymore. Welcome 2008.

2008-01-07T02:00:00.000+08:00

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still harder getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

[Chorus]

And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

Nana Thai Restaurant

2008-01-07T01:29:00.000+08:00

(Clockwise) My sweetheart: Cherie. Pineapple fried rice.
Pandan leaf chicken. Tom Yum Seafood Soup.

I never taste Cherie before, I can't comment she's sweet - literally. Perhaps, I'm the sweet one, she bit me before. I can't get over the handphone issue. I mean, she dropped her phone on my feet and guess what. She shrieked, "MY HANDPHONE!"

Hello babe, my feet suffered the impact of fall and it HURTS! Your handphone is perfectly fine, don't even bother to check, okay! Never mind, that's like ages (2 weeks) ago.

Ever wondered where to eat in Town, apart from the usual fast food restaurant? Well, you should visit Nana Thai Restaurant, at level 4 if you are in the vicinity of Far East Plaza. It has recently refurnished the outlet, to enhance its ambiance.

If you are with a friend, why don't you share some dishes like I did with Cherie, it's worth the money. For the health conscious ones, the Pineapple fried rice is not oily. You can smell the sweetness of the fruit, from each spoonful of rice.

For the Tom Yum Soup, it always go well with rice. It does not have the overwhelming punch of spicy. I'm not good at taking spicy food, but the soup is simply irresistible and smooth down the throat. I wish they're generous with ingredient, it's too little.

If soup is not your thing, Nana has some tasty finger food like: Pandan leaf chicken. It's strongly recommended from us. The grilled chicken chunk is tenderly fresh. Lets satisfy your taste buds and dip the chicken with mayonnaise.

No additional service charge or GST. It's a nice place for friends to chill and indulge in good food. For whom it might concern, it's a halal restaurant. =) The prices are definitely affordable.

DPFM@23, my classmates

2008-01-05T23:54:00.000+08:00

Some random memories of us, happily together. ilu*

lilian.cherie.fitriaini.rashiqah.mayche.huising.stephanie.mary.minyee.peiqin.marie.

veronica.wanlin.daniel.kaiwen.jerome.louis.hewei.waychuan.yonglun.allen.chaocheng.

Unity CCA Open House 2008

2008-01-05T22:07:00.000+08:00

UNITY 6TH PDS ROCKS! Hajar made it happened again!

Not the full squad, but they are marvellous!

I simply love Unity PDS. NPCC, please don't repeat stunts. It's been boring since 4 years ago. I remember how Hajar and gang trained us for PDS, it was tough but we enjoyed it. There's passion in us, the family.

Batch of 2004, proud to be in Unity! My buddy, My USM, and I.

Friends since Primary school, I adore her sweet smile. You're funny!

She's Siti Hajar. Sometimes, I bear grudges on her but most of the time, she make us a stronger person. Without the pioneers, I guess we won't be who we are today. Yes, commitment is a big responsibility. I never stop learning nor forget the important of it.

Thanks for the simple gesture. I appreciate it. =)

Just for laugh

2008-01-03T21:56:00.000+08:00

(left) CLT July 2005 / (right) SSG July 2004

I remember vividly that Alfred asked when I can slim back to that size (left)? argh* I already did, since 2 month ago! I can't believe I was that manly in secondary. I try to find some cute photo of me in secondary. Unfortunately, there is only one.

Do I look fair or someone from the Red Cross? That was taken after I "ORD" from NCC (Air), I believe the neoprint was dated in October 2004.

2008-01-03T20:28:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR, 2008! Fine, I'm slow.

For the first time, I think that music play a big part of my life. It makes me a happy person. I want to learn piano more than guitar. I don't fancy classical music but pop rock turn me on. Well written lyric with groovy tune make me want to dance. SING ALONG, babes!

I know we have been talking about it a long time. How the society here has changed and the perspective of youngsters... But such current affair is beyond our control. Certainly, we speak about it but not exactly with the guys around us. We ain't bimbo, who dress up nicely and lack of brain.

The ugly truth of all, to know the differences between some guys and girls set them further apart. No matter how hard you try, or what he has said, it doesn't matter anymore. Looking forward to the age of 20, will I be a happier person with anyone or myself?

Ignorance is a bliss. Sadly, there is no true love or forever love.

p.s. I been through partial brain damage and completed the article for Hui Ru. =) I miss you*

2008-01-02T19:11:00.000+08:00

"The cockroach which you tried to kill in the toilet swallowed you up? Haha." - Cherie

Where on earth did I end up with such a best friend? I'm cracking my head up, hope to find out that it's not empty inside. While Wei Zhan was keeping me awake to do my powerpoint, I fell asleep at one point. YAWN!

It was kind of stupid that I didn't get thing done, my new year resolution didn't turn out well. I believe with sheer determination, I can pull myself through. 2 week of holiday ended too fast.

"You called that holiday? Are you sure?", asked Wei Zhan and Cherie.

I lost a man, I got 2 sisters whom I'm not sure if it's for real. I'm not bothering cos' this January is so important to me. Whatever goes wrong, I have to make it right again. Apart from the relationship, I'm going to focus just studying and NCC.

What's my new year resolution for 2008?

Do what's expected from me in school, at home and work.
Do it well, leave no room for regrets.
Less bitchy but more happening.
Save money for University, I hope so.
That's all for the moment

I bought myself an organizer, it's time to organize my life like I used to. Sorry to the heartbroken ones. (The girls knew what I meant.)

2008-01-01T15:44:00.000+08:00

"Happy New Year... Be safe and healthy =)" Joel.

The last message I received in Year 2007. Thanks for the well wishes but it didn't seem necessary. You didn't give me what I wanted from you. Also, for the fact that you blocked me in MSN. That was not gentleman.

I had the most traumatic experience, the moment I came home from the party. No, it has nothing to do with me washing the dirty dishes or the clothes. I stepped into the shower and saw a big cockroach next to the tub.

Cherie wasn't kind to comfort but suggested that baygon will be my best friend. That was very helpful babe. It was a struggle between me (standing on the chair) and it for half an hour. YES! I succeeded, I think it died somewhere at my home. =( The time then was 4am...

The two person I called around that time were Cherie and Eric. I need a boyfriend who's not afraid of cockroach or lizard, and spider. Alright, I shall be brave on my own.

By the way, Jing Kai you got a manly voice. I'm totally fallen head over heel for your voice. You protrayed Daven like some dirty old man! Naughty* Be it at the pub or party, it will be equally fun with quality companies!

诰诉我，如何不爱你们多一点呢？

Siloso Beach Party, where the fun is...

2008-01-01T13:00:00.000+08:00

Amazing SMS directory to Yumcha Restaurant, Chinatown (provided by Cherie):

From the Chinatown control station, your back facing the control, turn left than walk straight then turn left again. Then walk straight to the escalator. Then walk straight all the way along that stretch of road. Look up and look for the yumcha signboard. It's on the right, cross a small narrow road. There you are!

I asked for DIRECTION but I was expecting CHECKPOINT! =)

p.s. Yumcha dimsum buffet, worth the try again!

Meanwhile, Cherie and Jeremy invited me to the foam party. The more the merrier, how true but I know mother will not agree to it. Jeremy commented, "Jamie is a spoiler!"

After many round of dimsum and persuasion from them, I called my mother. She agreed without second thought. Are you really my mother?

Poor Siwei was issued guard duty on New Year Eve. =( Sandra managed to make it. The 3 ladies dressed up nicely + bikini to the beach. I felt unsecured at those curious stares on me. The bus ride with Sandra was so uncool, there was a mother who didn't know how to behave like an adult. She farted openly and swung around beside us. She rested on Sandra's boobs. How unglam!

It was considerably torturous walking to and forth the car park, before settling down at the beach. We're barefooted and the floor wasn't comfortable for walking. I bet we didn't like that angmoh who pecked our cheeks. We spitted in our unwanted drink for those greedy party-goers.

It was unexpected that "bangalah" were filthy rich, Jeremy said they were showering with the foam! Gross! I must comment that the music and crowd were very wrong. I felt that my ticket price was not justified!

Perhaps, I paid for a close up view of fireworks. It got me jumping excitedly! Sandra was like my the other half that night. =) Jeremy was a smooth driver, he got us safely home. Before we knew it, it was 3am in the morning.

3-in-1

2007-12-31T14:07:00.001+08:00

Here come the updates:

27/12/07

I had my hair rebonded at Kimage, School of Hairdressing. If you don't mind unskilled students, you should give it a try? I mean, going through hell of getting hair damage and burns. Other than those I mentioned, the normal wash and cut were fine.

29/12/07
As usual, the only thing I ever good at is "poor timing". I guess it's just me being lazy most of the time. =) Cherie and I decided to spent remaining half of our day in Town. The ultimate purpose was to battle through the crowd and get the best bargain for - CNY clothes.

We also benefited from those long walks. One end to the other of Orchard wasn't easy, with heavy bags on our shoulders. We were very thirsty all the time. I seriously wonder why. Perhaps, we talked too much. I think Jeremy is lagging behind us. Totally.

This girl thing with Mel and my clique, I must say we're sucha bitch! We love it anyway.

30/12/07
How often do I get to wake up this early at 8am, just to get ready for dimsum? Bertram and I went down to Red Star Restaurant, at Chinatown. I been there once when I was much younger. Cherie had craving for dimsum but it wasn't satisfying for her.

Her dis-satisfactory wasn't demanding, I was indulging delicacies in her absence. I will take extra precaution when walking in front of Anderson Ice Cream, at Marina Square. I felt embarrassed. =(

2007-12-31T14:03:00.000+08:00

I'm almost there, to the finishing line. cheesilicious. *licks.

Jusco, Malaysia

2007-12-26T16:29:00.000+08:00

Let me put it this way, we ain't going back there again. Boring.

But we love the hypemarket, many yummy sample.

Dunkin' donut was alright, seriously.

jamie the fearless. =) Inherited from Daddy.

2007-12-25T23:55:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Jamie screamed @ her classmates over the phone, after the clock striked twelve.

sijie.marie.peiqin.yonglun.lilian.minyee. (anyone I miss out?)

I told 2 lies on 24/12/07, only 3 person knew about it.

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location location location (youtube joke)

x'mas party in cherie gui's home @ pasir ris drive 3

washed her overnight dirty dishes
prepared the food we bought
set up the steamboat/bbq stove
boiled the soup (cherie n' siwei added tea power by mistake)
gossiped about guys and social circle
backed to wash dishes and arrange for a game of monopoly
Rules: kena taxes or jail, must drink a cup of alcohol mixed.

Best Monopoly Nominations

Fraud/Banker: Jeremy
Bartender/Highest total asset: Cherie
Bankrupt/Wanted jailbird: Sandra
Steady investor/SMRT stakeholder: Si Wei
Assistant banker/Most cash in hand: Jamie

Monopoly has never been this fun before, we drunk and went high - UP ABOVE.
For the first time, everyone were wild and WOW!!!

p.s. Thanks Bertram! I love the cheesecake. TEACH ME! <3

2007-12-23T09:39:00.000+08:00

如果没有明天，就没有永远。我真心的爱过，却换来阵阵的伤痛。

Sentimental, perhaps they're right.

cherie.weiling.sandra.sijie.marie.rash.peiqin.lilian.mary.yonglun.sherlyn.

leslie.eric.junquan.alfred.daven.jingkai. (list not in order)

My clinque, my classmates, my friends. They stood by me, when I least expected of them. Definitely, there are more people who make my day and walk with me. I greatly appreciate that too. They might leave my life some day, and most days they are there when I need them. Same goes to me for them. =)

Happy 19th Birthday, Jun Quan!

East Coast Trauma

2007-12-22T10:25:00.000+08:00

A night in East Coast Park, leave me partially paralysed temporarily. Neither can I bend my knee or elbow freely. I have to keep my action to the minimal. Blood was bleeding profusely. The accident happened @ 2:54am. There are more superficial cuts than what you see from the above.

2 explanation to the mishandled situation.

emotionally unstable
negligent

I had a bottle of beer at the bar, the background music was saddening, it got me into the mood. Yet, I'm all smiling at the fact I was cheated. JC added on that he saw them and he was kind of sure about them having an affair. I was distracted by the thought of Joel & CL.

I told him the bicycle seat was too high, I can't reach the floor, but I insisted taking it anyway. Not realizing the bicycle was highly "driftable" and before I can make an accurate turn, I drifted across the rough pavement on my body. I was not traumatize at the accident, I put on a smile and bear the pain. I dare not scream, I was afraid I will cry for him. I must be strong.

Sorry guys to make you worry about me. I was in too much pain over my wounds than to concentrate in the conversation. Pardon me okay? =)

JC, who doesn't open their mouth and sleep in bus? We're very tired! At least, we don't fart openly like you, so gross! You drool too. Oh my god!

Thanks for inviting me to the BBQ, I paid for my share and ate under the watchful eyes of others. I didn't starve my already weak body. Yes, that fat guy, he shouldn't play district. We fight with him over Risk! Alliance, please!

Time to dress up my wound. OUCH! OUCH! OUCH!

2007-12-21T09:04:00.000+08:00

"Jamie, wake up your senses, please!

Joel Li, your beloved honeybear, has dumped you for a girl he met in Redang. What for waiting hope for this guy who fell in love for that cheap girl? If you didn't hear it wrongly in school, from those passed by gossipmonger, it means they are spreading like fire.

I feel sorry for you that he didn't give you a second chance, due to the fact that he thinks of you has nothing with his future. He wants a fling and let him be, please. If both of them last long despite she knew he has you back then. What does it mean, tell me Jamie? It means the same thing will happened, over and over again.

Let's say, both of them are not affected and thought that the love is blooming only after you and him has broke up. They're in love, the love already bloomed back in Redang and because she is so close, she took the opprtunity and grab him from you. He could be cheating on her, like he did on you. He's not the man of your life. Let the pathetic couple be together, okay?

Congratulate them for being the perfect match. The heartless guy and the shameless girl. She can do that once, I can imagine she dumps him for another guy, or he dumps her for another girl who gave him that "love". Not to mention, if they have this affair on those who have married or such. How can anyone like them so cruelly destroy a relationship. I'm not pitying you by lashing this out at you. I want you to understand, being your best friend, I don't want you to get hurt.

You have wasted 17 months on him, they got together just like when, after September? Unless, he loves her deeply because both of them has done that. You get what I mean? It's not the best friends he got in Secondary you should worry about. Okay, they have the long bond there. It's those girls who came out of nowhere who doing all these thing. I believe what you have heard. I'm glad you didn't see both of them together.

In the case, you meet them outside or in school, they are lovey dovey. I know it's hard to be neutral but don't forget that piece of jigsaw I told you? Someone will come with it and fit into your life - forever.

Jamie, please post up this letter and let it be a reminder to you. Don't keep it in your inbox. It's redundent to do so. If you can't do it yourself, I will post it for you. You are a nice girl, you didn't disclosed that girl's identity, even to us.

But to that girl who might be reading this, I guess so since she check your friendster like Joel did. Don't let Joel's honey talk or affectionate gesture fool you. You might be the NEXT JAMIE.

If he really love you and said you are his life forever. But broke up with you without any clarification or explanation. Truth has been hiding somewhere inside him. I knew you tried to get him to speak it out but he refused. Again, that guy is not sincere. He's just guilty, no he's not. He's irresponsible. Maybe, some time later you might see that girl pregnant and he's with another girl. Exactly like Britney Spears's marriage.

He seem like everything to you but he's masking his evil deed by cheating girls' feelings. Give him a chance to explain everything, hear what kind of story he's giving you. He's not doing it so, because he wants you to pin hope on him and let you hang in the mid air thinking there's a chance. How disgusting. I been there once, and hope you understand I'm not influencing you. I love you, my dearest girl friend. We are the one who will stand by you."

*confidential*

19/12/2007

- letter was posted up by Jamie's best friend.

p.s. I told you, I will do it for you. If you delete it, I will publish it in my own way. Get a life!

2007-12-20T00:46:00.000+08:00

I want to laugh, it's tickling me inside. No hatred. No anger. =)

How'd I managed to lose something that important? It going to cost me a lot in life. No, it's FYP report! I have to replace the details by tomorrow.

The unexpected guests were Eugene & Yvonne. Be contented that I cooked for you okay! It was nice, wasn't it? Teochew fish porriage, prepared by Jamie's dad. We're so late for the preparation @ Moberly.

Jamie is girlishy and sporty. She knows how to listen patiently, despite in a hurry for other thing. People bring her in for event, to expand that social circle. A nice simple smile she has, how terrific.

Thanks everyone who went and made it happened! We enjoyed it, didnt we? Eugene simply loves Or Lina right? Wei Zhan should second it and be her lover! Muack*

2007-12-19T02:48:00.000+08:00

There's this girl who said words with admiration for Honeybear. She clearly told me in her own way, she likes him and how he has made everyone happy. I heard people commenting how she seem to like him and how close they are in camp and in school. But I thought it was just his best friends, I have too much worries about.

Nonetheless, I didn't raise up this piece of news to him. I'm listening to his voice in my handphone, it's so sweet. My heart pumps harder and faster, like I'm in love again. But I never lost that love.

Assumption leads to complication. There are people who said he can lose his love so fast, because there is a girl chasing after him. He falls for her expressive care and take everything you had with him - as nothing. Only those people who are on par with me in a relationship, will understand how hard it is to say goodbye.

Could I been hearing it wrongly about this girl who seem so nice? Why will there be such a girl who openly chase after someone else's boyfriend? If that guy lost his love, it means he's never serious with you. That girl is just someone who offering open leg services.

I dare not say all these, strangers told me that. I'm just quoting what I feel appropriate here. I was in a camp training and this brought back some bad memories, but fond memories of Redang with him were highly delicious for my heart. Sugar rush.

2007-12-18T07:49:00.001+08:00

Cherie said, we're just 19, he's 19 too. The road to marriage will take another 7 - 10 years. Will he be able to love you this long and that much?

I don't know. I want to cherish the moment. I don't want to waste my time, ruining my own future. He's not getting out of my mind any sooner. I seem to have traded everything I have, for his presence. It sounds dumb to prioritize him above my own future. But he has picked the wrong time to make me feel the pain.

Eric said, it's an indication that he's not the one for me. Please concentrate on what I should be doing and have to do, instead of everything about him. What if both of us are together again? He might take another moment in my life and break up with me, or divorce me then? It would be more hurting, if I have reached that stage.

I don't know. I was so sure then like he did. Now I'm making myself tired of all these things. I really want to be a happy old me. I can always love someone else better. There is no need to rush into any relationship. But we were always there for each other. I don't want to get out of this routine. I want to lead that simple life on and on. My life seem more meaningful and complete. He shows me love, happiness and everything. I don't want to go back to those times, I have to worry, no one will ever love me for who I am.

I'm tired and confused. I'm afriad I will lose myself and fail my papers. I don't want that to happen but nothing I can do to bring me up again. Unless, it's him. I'm not sure if he's trying to help me or letting me continue to destroy myself.

Loving someone and not to be loved in return, is tiring. I don't want this to be a passing phase. I need something real, to be with me for a lifetime. I love you, honeybear.

2007-12-17T17:40:00.000+08:00

I was thinking of him, and I fainted in the toilet. I heard people going in and out of the toilet but I was locked inside the cubicle. I wondered how long have I been unconscious. I doubt I be eating anything later - fasting.

I was thinking about him and all the things we have gone through. What we have were happiness, now what I have for myself - agony. I really cannot let go after so much bonding. I can't bear to see him enter any relationship or leave me behind. I want to spend my life happily with him forever.

I maybe self-centred, possessive, proud at the beginning of the separation. I'm trying to get your attention because you make my life whole. I maybe seem like no challenges or value to chase for, but I'm tired of all these manipulation game. I'm not living in the past, I'm bringing back the past to the future.

I want us to be in each other lives forever. Bearie, can you just give us another chance?

Honeybear's smile, simply melts my heart. I LOVE YOU TO THE MAX! Please come back, okay?

2007-12-17T12:55:00.000+08:00

forgiveness. openness. patience. determination. gracious. strength.

If I don't love myself, how will he love me back? I don't want the relationship we've built to go down the drain. I need enlightenment from you. I want us to be happy like before. It's not impossible, it's up to you to make thing easier for me. =)

Why will I want to give up someone who is this great? I love you too much. I'm sure I will stick by you forever. No matter what happens, I will be there for you in this lifetime.

Now, I have to channel my energy back to my studies, I wish all these breakup and quarrel didn't happen. It won't happen, if it's not for you. YOU MADE AN IMPACT IN MY LIFE.

I love you, honeybear. I don't want to count towards 2month of singlehood.

p.s. I'm frustrated, distracted all because of you & pms. But I will wait patiently for your understanding.

2007-12-16T23:51:00.000+08:00

I have so much things to tell you. I have so much things to hear from you.
I don't want to be in an agony anymore. I don't want to be in denial.
I want to have a chance with you. I want to be with you forever.
I can't spoil your day or my chance. I can't make you answer me right now.

I'm waiting... but I have fallen apart without you.