Tuesday, shall be my last examination paper - I hope so. Beside that, another reason to celebrate is my 3rd month of singlehood (in advance). I deleted his comments off friendster, but the real truth, I compiled it so I can read it over and over again.

I wrote a couple of emails to him then, he never reply a single of it. I admitted it was my bad to start that awful argument. I was unintentional, I was fearful of losing someone I bonded so well with. No one's perfect, that doesn't mean I won't want to make changes or improvements that I desire for myself. We changed to be better, and you decided to run away.

Over thrown by anger and worries, I can't handle a proper communication with you. I won't doubt your trust if you have been honest to me. Yes, a guy doesn't stop knowing or liking girls, even in a relationship. It got me thinking how faithful can someone be for as long as possible.

Don't run from conflict, you never bother to answer my question. Because of you, I failed to manage my emotions. I don't play games, pressure or manipulate someone in a relationship. I believe in being true to someone I love. In a close relationship, it is inevitable to have conflict. Can't we be more open minded to it?

I might have violated your bottom line and dignity by verbal abuse. Yet, I was left with no choice. I suffered a loss, I have grieved and I still feel sorry about myself. Wiping away teardrops on my laptop, I try to close the chapter and move on.

For once, the sadness over a breakup takes control of my life, I have no direction. Perhaps, you have fixed your pain. I can't hear what you don't say to me. I just can't be expected to know what's on your mind.

I want to be told and listen to every word you say.

That could be the best thing in my life, and to receive an embrace from you.

Don't ever make excuses or dismiss my presence, stop me from weeping no more.