Apparently, I lack of self-control this week. I feel that PMS making me over reacting. I tried to stop myself from making the same mistake, but I failed. No angry words. Mainly, telling I understand we have to mainain a distance.

IF I didn't interprete wrongly on "We will live our lives, without each other." It's like cutting off all ties or something. The silly side of me totally surface, I'm pushing her back to the dark corner.

Stay still, Jamie! You don't want to make thing worse again. Hey, what can I do, I can't move on, neither can I accept if he ever enters a new relationship. Typically, advice on such situation is that, I have to move on. Accepting the fact he's not coming back anymore.

Sorry, I can't do this. I've committed myself to him and it's hard to say goodbye. Will he teach me the way? Wait, I have to keep my distance. I hope I'm totally wrong. I'm in a MESS RIGHT NOW!

All these medication making me drowsy and weak. Tell me, I'm just having a nightmare. He be back when I wake up in the morning.